Thursday, November 30, 2017

Reflection

Frouzins – November 2017



Days are shorter,
summer’s voice is softer.
Green chlorophylls return
to their brown towns of branch, cities of trunk,
leaving the pigments of red and gold
to occupy their now vacated
summer holiday accommodations.

I circumnavigate the lake
wishing for myself its calm acceptance –
unruffled surface waters –
in contrast to my many nightmares –
of destiny, of school examinations,
of conflicted family of origin,
of the distant cosmos.

Autumn: medium of quiet messages,
but the dark mantras of winter
overpower its liturgy.
True, pines keep their needles but our tragedy,
our shame – we of the genus deciduous
is we shed our leaves, hibernate,
then one morning we do not wake.




Tuesday, November 21, 2017

NEVER

She never did come good,
no permanent move
from shadow into light,
no herb, medication or prayer
liberated her for long,
instead, chlorpromazine's spasms –
'twisties' we called them –
drove our family mad.

She’s dead
but the smoke of madness
drifts from her pyre,
slides under our door
obscures the window,
and hides the moon.

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

The White Room



My room has white walls.
Manacled with drips and catheters,
at night I conclude
I must be a prisoner
facing my last dawn,
the fatal shot up the cannula.
What have I done?

I’ve had the temerity to get sick
that’s what.
Something’s wrong
with my gut. 
I need ten days of antibiotics
through a vein.
I am captive in a single room.

Hour after hour the walls get to me,
screening silent episodes of my life.
I wait and wait for meals,
meds and obs.
Then there’s the TV –
it could be our family’s first.

“Hello childhood,”
it smiles, sparing me no pain,

“Remember me?”