Where was I?
Ah, yes! The
anaesthetist’s needle
and her
reassurance that soon
I would feel
sleepy.
I awoke after
six hours
in an
unfamiliar bed,
tethered
with drips and drains,
monitors,
catheters and relatives
anxious to
assess if marbles
had been
lost.
This was a
big deal,
bigger than
the scans suggested,
laparoscopes
revealing the damaged landscape
of bowel –
loops, entanglements and strictures –
in need of
individual attention,
amputation,
reconnection.
Nor was it
over
when the
anaesthetist went home,
with bloating,
excruciating coughing,
confusing ideas
from meds blending
nights and
days, two-hourly observations
of
temperature, blood pressure,
brief early
morning rounds by the surgeons,
feeble
washing.
What would
it be
instead of
waking
to have
‘slipped
the surly
bonds of earth’?
If dying is
like this, is it a big deal?
You just
don’t wake up.
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